i wish...

i wish it didn't hurt.
i wish i didn't care.
i wish it didn't matter.

i wish i was happy.

i wish i had money.

i wish i was pretty.

i wish i could sleep at night.

i wish i enjoyed my life.

i wish i could just enjoy food.

i wish you were here.

i wish i meant it.

i wish i was different.

i wish i lived somewhere else.

i wish i didn't exist.

Long, long time ago...

OMG, It's been so long since my last post. Apologies for that ^^

So, I realized that my life is completely awful. I betrayed my best friend, because of a stupid kiss. And it haven't meant to me anything, I even don't like that guy, I mean, he is kinda handsome, but I DO NOT LIKE HIM, not that way :/
And I was half drunk, but that is not an excuse.
But, thank God. She forgave me. And all we need now is a big bottle of a bad wine, and box of cigarettes, just to make it all like it was before.

I also have realized that I am one of those misunderstood people.
My best friend lives 30 minutes ride with bus from me, we don't go in the same class, not even in the same school.
My friends in class are good friends, but, I don't feel like I'm part of their group, not anymore. I am diferent, people don't like me from first. I am lazy and I don't like school and studying. I'm not a good student. But, after all, I am smart.
I'm just misunderstood person, that's all. :((

Okay, so this is it. It's about my life. You probably wouldn't like it, but THIS is the only place where I can express myself.
Hope you won't mind :))